On creating

Creating is important. I believe that creating is one of those things that set us apart from the animals. Of course, they create their own things, too, like nests. But it's for the living. And what I mean is that creating—creating for the sake of creating. Or you may want to call it art.

Brian Eno says, that art is everything that you don't have to do1. In the same lecture he says, that art is a form of surrendering, as opposed to controlling the world around us and our lives.

And I say: everyone should be an artist. Everyone should create, make music, draw, paint, dance and do all these things that are for nothing and are beautiful act of surrendering. Why? Because in the very act of making art there is something transcendental, something that opens us for the world beside, the world which goes by its own rules. Making art let's us rediscover our humanity over and over again.

This is the only important and the only true reason to create anything. Not for fame, not to say anything, not to be remembered. Here I would also like to cite Mark Hollis (known from Talk Talk band): The reason you are doing it is for the love for music2. He also states, that improvised music has got a special quality in it, that when one plays something for the first time, it's on its peak. One cannot recreate it, recreate this magic feeling. And the reason is obvious: the magic is in the act of creating, in the moment when through (in this case) playing music you open a connection to this world beside. Once you're done, the connection is lost and this is the quality of which Mark Hollis spoke.

Hollis is an interesting person, too. His band called Talk Talk was really successful in eighties with its snyth-pop & new romantic albums and hits like It's My Life. Then came the year of 1988 with the release of The Spirit of Eden, an album that not only revolutionized the rock music (some say the album to be the very first post-rock release), but also ended the commercial success of the Talk Talk band. No more hits and catchy melodies, just pure and beautiful art. But the world was not interested in art. Talk Talk commited a commercial suicide, as someone on the Internet said. But in terms of art, they rose from the ashes like phoenix.

3 years later, in 1991, Talk Talk released its last album. The Laughing Stock was for The Spirit of Eden what Spirit of Eden was for the earlier albums. And what did Mark Hollis do? He almost completely disappeared from the public life (which he partially did even earlier) and he stopped releasing music (apart from one solo album few years later). But that doesn't mean he stopped playing music. Let me speak with his words:

I can't imagine not playing music, but I don't feel any need to perform music. And I don't feel any need to record music. I'm really quite happy just to play one note, just hit it with different volume levels and see for how long it will resonate before it stops.

Mark Hollis

So, what's important again, is the very act of creating and its ephemeral nature. Not the form, but the substance.

And personally speaking, that approach is very close to me. Somehow I have come to very similar conclusions in my life. That would also explain why I run my musical project so reluctantly. As time passed I started to realize that there's no point in publishing my music and I don't even feel the need to. I just feel the need to make it—and that's not always anyway. There are times when I make a lot of music, but sometimes I'm not doing literally anything for year or two. So this process of creating is very natural and unconstrained, it's a language of its kind in which I can speak (mostly) to myself.

Have you ever find yourself doing something for nothing? Doing it jut because you feel like doing it? Now you know why. Keep on doing it!

Post scriptum

What came to my mind later is that divine nature is creative, it's a power that creates. That's the reason why the act of creation (!) is so magical, because it brings us closer to this divine nature of God and his act of creation (so infinitely more perfect than our art).